The books you found all those years ago were an answer to a question you had not been aware you had asked. They may have felt like the first opening, but you have been seeking answers and a connection to Truth your entire life. Your dance of practice and not, opening and closing, has shown you/reminded you of much. Here again, you are "being called." You are allowing yourself to hear the ever-present call again. You dedicated your life to God all those years ago. And wh